I need to get something off my chest. I'm not perfect.
I'm smart enough and clever enough to know how to get you to think that I'm perfect. I know all the right things to do, and all the right things to say. I've had many years of practice. I know exactly how to show off my strengths and also how to hide my weaknesses, but I'm not perfect. If you already knew this, then consider yourself among my best of friends.
God has been dealing with me in this area of my life. What I've been realizing is that one of my biggest fears is the fear of rejection. I combatted this with perfectionism. If I'm perfect, then how could anyone reject me? Surprise, surprise, it didn't work. Some people still reject you.
Someone was praying for me tonight, and they said something that seems obvious, but for whatever reason didn't sink in. Jesus is the only one that lived a perfect life. I'm not called to live a perfect life. I'm not called to be Jesus. I'm just called to follow Jesus, and do my best apply His teachings to my life.
Please pray for me in this area. Pray that God will build up a confidence in me to live as the person God created me to be, with no regrets or apologies.
I like this quote from John Eldredge, "Let people feel the weight of who you are and let them deal with it."
You need to remember that there is a very big distinction between being *blameless* and being a *fake.* Because in the above context, these are the words I would replace with "perfect."
ReplyDeleteIn my opinion, the people in my life I have called "perfect" are the ones with flaws that they openly deal with. That is, they are made whole by their honesty about themselves and the world.
Thanks Megan.
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